litt om meg sa du? :P

eg hette då John, e 16 år og går på 1vgs. I fritiden like eg å sitta på dataen,
se på tv, klatra og sykla og bruka mye av fritiden t å vera med venner :).
eg har (etter passets forklaring) mørke blondt hår,
så eg tror eg e et kinderegg :P, eg e 180cm høy, eg e ganske snill og grei.
eg kan bli sykt hyper/barnslig om eg får for mye sukker eller søtsaker,
men seie du stopp, så stoppe eg som regel :)
eg e ganske smarte (Men kun om eg vil ver d!) :P
eg har msn, men den får du isje før du spør fint ;)
som kansje någen av dåkker vett, så like eg å hjelpa folk med vanskeligheter.

ja, d va litt om meg, då e d vell din tur :P
e d någe mer du lure på så e d bare å spør :)

Eg bite isje! :P
Eg bare kose litt ;)

Lurer vell kansje også på hva jeg leter etter i ei jente.
legg meg heller til på msn dersom du er intresert i å snakke så får du svar på spørsmål :)

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I’m one of a kind

I’m nice, but still from the USA.
I’m happy, but still don't have friends.
I'm glad, but still, I am sad.
I don't have friends, but still, I have a Girlfriend.
I'm not cool, because i'm from USA.
I'm not sexy, but most girls think i'm cute.
I'm not a genius, but i'm smart.
I'm not perfect, because no one can be.
I'm from USA, but still I have a body as you.
I'm not the coolest person, but I do have feelings.
I'm me, a unique person.
I'm one of a kind, no one else looks like me

I am a Person.

I am a person in a big world.
A person with needs,
Needs for love and friendship.
Without my needs,
I'll just be thing in this world.

Why don't I have so many friends?
I am not sure,
But I do know one thing.
Those friends I have,
They mean everything for me,
And they respect me, for who I am,
And I respect them for who they are.

Many times I wonder,
Do people have a brain?
Or are they just blind?
Why I wonder this,
Is because I have never felt much respected by others,
I have always been less meaningful in the world for others.

I have many times tried to commit suicide,
But never got to the point by doing it.
Why would I try to commit suicide you might ask?
Because I have never ever in my whole life felt belonged here.
Why I haven't felt belonged here?
Because most people treat me like hell.

But what have I learned in my life?
I have learned that life is a test,
A test of how much you can handle,
I have learned that some people do love me,
and I love them.

Bad Part of Life

I think i am ok, that i am glad and happy,
i think that my life is great.
But who am i fooling?
every one who knows me,
knows that i am not ok, and that i am not happy or glad,
They see that i am sad, that i am screaming for help.
And they see that i dont have a great life, but a horrible life.

I wonder why i live this life, and what my task is.
I know that everyone doese have a task in life,
one they have to complete, but what is my task?
and who has to help me, i dont see any light at the end of the tunnel.
the only thing i see, is the darkness, screaming and clawing towards me,
wanting to rip me apart, to see me die.
I've asked many questions in life, but only getting more of them back.

Good Part of Life

Now, as i am 16 years, i have been victimized through my whol life,
but i can't say that i havent learned anything from it,
i have actually gotten in some way, a better life.
Now i know how much people really need me, need to be supported from someone,
iv'e finally found out what my task is.
But there i was wrong, every time i help people,
i start to get more need of help myselfe,
i get more and more feelings, questions, and more stuff to think about.

I think i just need to live my life as it goes, and try to hlep others,
but not too much, i have too help myselfe too.
I have much more friends now, wich is a good thing,
but since i got my new friends, there has happened som things.
Mostly good things, but many bad things too.
Well, at least i still have many friends that i can trust.
So who can i blame? i do have a good life.
Or do i? Who knows, i surtenly don't.

The person i am today.

when i think back at my life,
at all the bad things,
and all the good things that have happened,
it makes me cry sometime,

sometimes of happiness and joy,
sometimes of sadness and sorrow,
sometimes of emptyness og lonelyness

Every day for me has been a test,
wich i have not liked, and wich i have liked sometimes
it has brought me pain and a hurt heart,
i've been played with my feelings, and stompt too the ground.

i have also had my good times,
taken cared of, been fed,
gotten education as teenager,
and gotten to do stuff my own way.

trough primary school i've been a victim of bullying,
iv'e been bullyed so much i almost wanted to drop down and die,
sometimes i've been kicked and hit,
sometimes i've been beaten.

but i would not change any thing of the stuff that have happened,
even if someone could grant that wish,
because i am not the person i am today,
if it had not been for the stuff wich have happened.

i would not be the careing person i am to day,
nor would i have the experience that i have,
i would not have met the people i know to day,
whome i care for, and love.

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